Emotional Adultry??

I know its been forever since ive blogged...but i havent had much to blog about...till now! I am a married woman I know this lol but ive been chatting to a man for a bit now and feel my emotions growing for him stronger and stronger everytime i talk to him (which is quit a bit lol) and now im at a crossroads. Do i stay in a marriage with a man i barely talk to anymore or do i follow my heart and go elsewhere. I know a divorce would KILL my kids they love their father very much, but is it fair to stay and let them see how unhappy i am all the time??? Damn this moral fiber in me. I would never physically cheat on my hubbie but is there such a thing as emotional adultry?? If there is them im totaly in the wrong. I justs have so much more in common with this other man, we make each other laugh about the stupidest things, but whats more is he just "gets" me! I dont even have to finish a sentence but he knows exactly where im comming from.

I have noticed i find myself becomming even more distant with my hubbie, i stay up later i never go to bed till LONG after i know hes asleep, im on the puter chatting with my other guy WHILE hubbie is in the room (im a horrible bitch i know). I just dont even know what to do about all this anymore. Ill sometimes stop what im doing and think about him and then all of a sudden he calls to say he was just thinking about me (coincidence?). I dont want to hurt anyone but is it fair that im hurting in the mean time? Well till i figure out if emotional adultry is grounds for divorce im outta here a bit.

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Please explain

I just dont see why some people mess with others emotions!!! Do they get their kicks off of it or what

??? Maybe because im not that way I dont see the thrill in it... or maybe its the fact I know that people have feelings *whether its here or in real life*. Is it an ego thing or what????? And if it is an ego thing wtf is wrong with men

???? I swear some people just need to grow up and relize you cant keep treating people like shit cuz karma is a real bitch and she takes no prisoners!

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Santas Ho Ho Ho

Well we had our big Christmas party at our house again this Sat. It went very well and had tons of fun now that im no longer sick. But now my house is trashed and i'm supposed to have Christmas dinner here for hubbies family

how i got stuck with that ill never know

!!!! Just his annoying brothers, my bitchy sister in law and their 3 demons from the 7th layer of hell...... oh and cant forget the unable to please parents

. Sooooooooooooo not looking forward to Christmas this year

just wish i could get in the spirit of things......... Oh well always the new year to look forward to right????

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Lifes Big Questions

Ok so i have been thinking alot lately and i need answers...... Maybe one of you all could help me with my dilemma?!?

Just what would you do for a Klondike bar?

Me I would.....

1. Jump on a trampoline naked *scarey for most*
2. Kiss Courtney Love *ew ew ew*
3. Actually clean my house *which means alot....trust me*
4. Go on Fear Factor and eat one of the nasty things they make everyone eat *puke*

So tell me just what you all would do?????

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And the saga continues

Well im in a much better mood as of late.... except now with everything else that i had wrong with me *aka pneumonia for 2 months* all the damn meds the dr. gave me has now given me a rash..... im allergic to my antibiotic it seems *doh*. I just wish this would all be over and im my happy and flippin cheerful self :|. Im itchy and upset that i cant wear my cute new outfit for my Christmas Party at my house on Sat. :(. Grrr just waiting for something else to go wrong now...... when will this all end??? Just tired of being sick and tired lol. Anyways i got yelled at for hateing something that all redblooded americans love ....... :| how is that fair?? So i decided to list a few things that most others love but i hate :P

1. Hotdogs *ew does anyone know what they put in those? Cuz i dont*

2. Baseball * how boring is that???*

3.Pie * why do we as a nation love pies???*

4. Frozen potpies * again there is that pie thing *

5.U2 * they arnt even good ffs....sorry to those of you who do like them*

Well so ends my rant for the day!!!! Maybe... I feel for anyone i may have to chat to later *cough corn cough*

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Are there any such thing as On line

I'm beginning to seriously doubt it...... i know how stupid it sounds to be upset over shit that happens in a chat room, but untill you become a reg and have been there then you dont know. All i want to know is wtf why me ???? I'm a good person so why do I get all the fucking bullshit ??? Probly cuz I fucking put up with it :( I so need to grow a backbone :|. One of these days I wont be around and the vultures will turn on themselves ...... god i cant wait for that to happen!!!! I must be the most pathetic person on earth for this to bother me so fucking much...... at least now i know...... friends in chat......dont exist :| God i feel like the biggest jackass ever for letting it bother me *cry*

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Exhausted

Ever have one of those days that just NEVER seem to end!!!!! My day started at 6 am and i was looking forward to getting out of work by 1 or 2........ didnt get home till after 6 :( . I'm very tired but i'm starting to feel better..... finally. Looking forward to this weekend,kids are gone and i actually have plans...YEAAAA!!!!!! God do i sound sad lol. I need more of a life. Maybe ill pack my kids up and ship them to Zimbabwa or something so i can get some free time to myself..... does that sound selfish ???

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Wow good mood alert!!

Wow who would of thought I would be in a good mood as of late with everything. Even with the holidays approching im in a good mood YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I kinda wanna go shopping now and start my Christmas shopping lol. Well off to maybe decorate something :D..... TC all and hope your having Happy Holidays ;)

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Ok here we go again

I hope i dont come across as whiny and self absorbed :( those are 2 things i really hate and would hate for ppl to think that of me. Lots to deal with lately and already tired of it all..... hoidays suck and really get me down with all the things that need to be done *why cant i just hire someone to be me during the holidays*. Just so damn tired all the time and just wanna make it all go away......... no these are not suicidal thoughts lol it's exactly what it says im just tired of being sick and want it to stop lol see :P. Well have to finish making dinner... maybe ill come back and write more later....... maybe

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Back again lol

Well i have been gone for 4 days and im still bitter and full of piss for my "CHAT FRIENDS". I feel i get screwed around every corner i turn and no matter what i do or say the stab me in the back !!!!!! I'm not a bad person so wtf is wrong with them? I dont doubt i have made mistakes but ffs come on who hasnt???? I feel let down by the ones who say they are my friends :( . Not sure what to do or how to take anyone anymore........ tired of the betrayl. If someone,,,,,, anyone knows how to deal with this shit pls pls pls tell me how cuz im tired of being hurt........................ end blog!

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Happy Thanksgiving

Ok I tried this once before and i got burned by people who i thought were my friends.... now maybe if i dont tell them i moved my blog to another site they cant used my own life against me. For anyone who may stubble across this... My deepest regrets!!! This will be full of my own thoughts and ramblings, and just to annoy those of you who are anal about spelling and puntuation.... tough i wont use spell check and ill make tons of errors *some on purpose* so suck it up :P

I may hit on a few hard topics that i tried in my other blog but i havent decided yet. I just have so much i want to get off my chest and I need to unload it somewhere or just...........EXPLODE!!!!!!! I have deep dark secrets not many know and I feel i need to keep addressing them in order to make sense of it all.

Well I guess this is enough rambling for one holiday and ill end it here! Once again my deepest regrets to those who have read this and i hope you dont need to much therapy if you decide to come back.

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